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megan.

" I really enjoy having sex, but women are the quiccest to call other women sluts." Megan Fox

hola. im not quite sure why i keep this blog when i rarely ever write posts. its like one week ill have a blogger addiction and post everyday and then ill stop for weeks. anyhow. that picture up there was one of my favorite pictures ever at one point. its about 2 years old but hey...

so as i was talking to jamila omari today i realized something i suppose ive known for a very long time but have never really spoken on. see, in this lovely teanecc community of ours people just love to run their mouths about other people and their lifes. i always say that i dont judge people because i know people judge me. and its true to a certain extent. i guess i realized today that no matter what people may think ive done and say about me, i am completely fine with it. i know exactly what i have or havent done, and i am so 100 percent comfortable with my sexuality and the decisions i may or may not have made. no one is perfect. but if you own up to your mistakes you should be respected. all these girls in teanecc high school who go on crying about a rumor arent comfortable with themselves and obviously have something to feel guilty about. if you owned up to the things you do you wouldnt have a reason to cry. and further more if you own up to the things youve done, you wouldnt be looked at as such a hoe. sitting down and lying about every last thing youve ever done, when people obviously know know about it, youre a hore. my motto is "if you have the balls to do it, have the balls to admit to it" another thing is why are females to quiccly to judge eachother without looking at themselves first. whenever you point a finger at someone theres always three pointing bacc at you.

food.

theres no picture in this blog and this will be very short and sweet. im going out to dinner tonight with monica and jamila. and let me tell you, i cannot wait to eattt :]

jaykayohh & kaygeeemm.

LOOK WHAT SHE MADEEEE :}

jaykayohh.

i think im starting to realize that life is way too short to live off of shoulda coulda wouldas. ive decided to live smiling and laughing instead of worrying. ive spent too much time worrying about other people , trying to please other people, and not enough time on me. so now its time.

besides. i have numerous events coming up that i get to spend with this lovely gal. and i must say. baking sounds so much better when its in the same sentence as jamila :]

Teaneck High School.

I am soooo not looking forward to going to school tomorrow. I can honestly say this was the fastest 2 weeks of my life. I never knew a vacation filled with well not very much could go so quiccly. Anyway, I dont want to go back tomorrow :[ I hate school so much and I hate to be cliche but this "senioritis" is kiccing me in my butt. I cant ever focus on anything in school all I think about is 255 coming so I can leave that damn building. I seriously have to get over this senioritis because my grades, well, they arent horrible....but they are definately not what they could be. So 2009, GET OVER SENIORITIS!

Oh yeah, the only good thing about going to that hell hole every single day, sitting in boring class, killing my brain to learn all the things AP Psych and Anatomy & Physiology require, is seeing Jamila Omari and complaining about the thousand things we have to complain about :]

played me like a fool.

so im sitting here and this is my first posting in 2009. im not a huge fan of new years, to me its a day where people like to pretend things will change, when deep down they know they're going to be exactly the same. but anyhow. i didnt do anything special today. it was actually a quite boring day. some people believe the way you start the new year is how your entire year will be. does that mean that my year is going to be boring? these people need to step back into reality. you cant predict an entire year off of one day.

this song just came on the radio and i've never heard it before. but i kind of like it :] i think ill look up the lyrics now...apparently its "if this isnt love" by Jennifer Hudson. gosh i love her. her songs are always amazing. and she is such a strong woman. she lost just about her entire family and can still record music and do interviews. if i were in her shoes i would be crawled up in a ball in a mental institution.

jamila omari is moving. she is so lucky! i mean, i would give anything to move. i love the idea of having an empty apartment or house and being able to do whatever you want to it. actually, i take that back. i do love that idea, but i love my room. its mine. from the pictures on the ceiling, to the NO BOYS ALLOWED poster that's posted right over my bed, its me, its cozy, its home <3

so ive been talking to an old acquaintance online for like two days. and im kind of glad. because instead of being upset about this or that, ive been focused on all the new things i could possibly learn about this new friend. not for nothing, but im liking this getting to know a person thing. i guess the new year did bring one new thing, a new friend :]